Not Enough Followers

update: without gaining the followers metabussinesssuite info required, my abilities on my instagram account magically changed after writing this blog. So by manifestation or empowered people paying way closer attention than I could imagine, the part of this blog where I can not do the things I paid to be on Squarespace to do is not true any longer. All I did was rant a bit right here then things changed, so I wanted to correct the information without removing it. Right now, I am tagging my products to posts in instagram that are all about Undertale and the anti-hyperglycemic effects of drinking tibicos and I don’t have a single follower more than I did before so I still need them but it stings less.

It is difficult for me to seek attention. My family is not a supportive group of people. They are ready to tell you all the reasons why you should and will fail. The “bring you down so they can feel better about themselves” type of people. That is the family I was born and raised in. It is not as bad to experience as it sounds. Or maybe that’s just what I tell myself since I can’t create a new group of people to come from. I am grateful for the resilience it has built in me. That resilience has not kept me from getting frustrated with my current situation. I don’t have enough followers on my Instagram account to be allowed to use the marketing tools which convinced me to put my website on Squarespace in the first place. I never dove completely into social media so I only really have my extended family to ask for support before turning to strangers. Three years ago, when I started telling my family about tibicos, I didn’t know I would reach such a high level of frustration with them. But I am here. In a place where I know the epsteinbarr virus that gives me all my health problems is hurting all of them too and yet, they won’t accept the help of tibicos which freed me so greatly from my ailments.

The family I have created is different than my extended family. We all drink tibicos daily, and I drink the most at over 1 litre a day. The longer I drink so much tibicos daily, the more benefits I notice. I have researched and understood that the roots of existence for this microbiome truly entitle and encourage every human to incorporate tibicos into their diet. Currently, we are taking advantage of a beautiful intersection between modern food technology and this ancient SCOBY that grows so well in liquid fruit sugar. I do believe that fermenting with tibicos:ins creates the best-tasting tibicos that ever existed in human history.

My extended family has not embraced tibicos regardless of my efforts to share. The restrictions on traveling when I first learned about tibicos kept me from physically presenting this SCOBY to all of them in an organic and personalized way that would force them to reject tibicos without trying it first to my face. I won’t go out of my way for them like that now. Their ignorance and pessimism is the root of their demise and I can not do anything to compensate for that. Now I don’t have the desire to even think about trying. They know about tibicos so I have done my job.

I know their rejection is not because of me, as I have never tried to convince anyone to do anything like this before. I know it’s not because of me, as I have always dealt in sharing the truth and trying to find sustainable ways to achieve healing and peace for everyone. That’s the pattern of my existence. I have a very material method of sharing healing this time around, but they won’t even try it. 

I know it is not the method for growing tibicos that I have shared because my friends (people who are not pessimistic or ignorant) were able to grow and drink tibicos after they learned about it from me. I used the same approach, ideas and communication materials as with my extended family. I actually put more effort into trying to teach my family members to help themselves than I have put into anyone else. That effort has not resulted in their acceptance of tibicos. I am sure it is not me that keeps my extended family from benefiting from tibicos.

Anyone can come up with an excuse not to partake in a habit that will heal them. Food is immediately personal. Encouraging microorganism growth freaks people out. Juice has sugar in it before it is fermented. Time is spent doing so many other activities that the mind can’t imagine adding another. All of these are reasons people around me have used to not help themselves by drinking tibicos. And while I give everyone autonomy over their decisions, I don’t respect ignorant, fear-based thinking. I pray for the opportunity to destroy it.

I have to trust that I will keep finding strangers with more open minds and kinder hearts than the people who I come from. I do find these strangers. The random and extremely positive strangers I have found along the way are the only reason that I have continued to decide to share tibicos with even more strangers. I do still put some effort into convincing my family to heal themselves. I know the adversities that I have to heal from are their adversities as well. So I do keep trying to get my family to participate in tibicos because I have a heart full of grace, not because I believe they will participate or care any longer about whether they join in.

My family thinks I bother them because I am trying to get help for me, but I already have my healing. Enduring their resistance is only preparation for the next steps in my life. They will leave themselves behind because it’s easier than recognizing their failure to comprehend me. The point is, just like anything else unconventional in my life, the amount of support I start out the gate with is none.

All I can do is appeal to strangers who read this. Please follow alltheferment on Instagram, and help me tell more strangers about tibicos.